Free Write: WHY ME?

Recently, my personality has been assulted by rumors and false judgement from people who dont even know me, havent even seen me in person. I just wanted to say thank you for making me feel my size. People who you ain't even expect to do certain things suprise you. I have been taken advantage of. My niceness has been slaughtered to the extreme. My friendly style has been raped and abused. You expect me to still contain my nature and be nice and friendly? How can one be so kind and caring after being trappled on. Not just through school friends but through friends that you consider family. Stuff like that hurts and its hard to get over it and move one like nothing has happened. Is this what you recieve for trying to make new friends trying to be what you said you'd be. I really want to cry,but the person that Im striving to be is preventing me from doing that. I HAVE to be strong and HAVE to be respectable and be the adult cause some has to be. But it still hurts. Why me?